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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Last Updated: 27.06.2025 17:09

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

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Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

Im dying but, im not bitter.

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Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

I think the readers, may guess!

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But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

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I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

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Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

What did i know ?

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

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19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

I was very sick at this time too.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

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Thats was my nicest nick name for him

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

I waited trembling.

Can you tell me something about yourself?

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

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My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

This is soul school!.

What made you feel satisfied about your life today?

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

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Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

My family never makes their pension either.

He knew the spot.

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Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

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When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

She wouldn,t have been !

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

I was scared of men, in general

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

She married twice! .

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

When she asked me how she looked .

I was 9 years of age.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

One cannot live in the past .

All the time i was locked up.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

And who doesn’t know suffering?

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

She found it foreign!.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

She was in good health!

She loved him until the end.

It was going to be , some day.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

Put me off passion for life!!

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

But it wasn’t much.

I write beautiful poetry .

I couldn’t, believe it.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

We all went to grammer schools

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

My life is so biszare .

I said to her

Where the ultimate outsiders.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

I have no regrets .

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

Ive learnt so much.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

(And it was in our own minds.)

Why did i forgive my father ?

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

But, we were locked up after school.

Was to survive, this bastard.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

Who then, do I blame.?

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

I will be 64.

I never cut or harmed myself..

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

He resisted the act ,that day.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

I don,t even have a pension.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

So, i spoilt her more .

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

And i lived it daily.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

They are buried together, in the same grave..

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

I did it because my mum asked me too!

I could never make a relationship work though!

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

Comes on , in middle age.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

I was seconnd youngest,

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

On the 31st of Jan this month .

Im still living with it.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

So whats the point in blame.

As i do to all so called friends.?

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

The only rule us 5 kids had .

Would this be the day?

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

But ive been too sick for many years..

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

We were not on the streets..

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

Especially a lifetime of it.